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After this past weeks talk I realized instead of trying to fit myself into a mold, I should instead step back realize why I am doing this project to begin with.  Why am I doing this? What's the point of this project?  I know realize that I am honestly a girl who has lived a depressing life and in order to face the world and deal with the life I live I put on a smile and make everything to be happy all the time. I act like everything is okay, but to be honest it's not. It actually sucks and sometimes wonder whats the point anymore. What's the point of putting up this fake reality that doesn't exist.  As much as I wish it to be real, it is still fake.  No matter how much I dream and how real they feel to me it is in the end still fake and am forced to wake up each day.  I strive to be this perfect princess where dreams do come true, but to be honest the princesses dark past follows them and the question is "Are they even really happy" or is it "As close as they will get to happiness since their life has been so crappy and anything is better than what they have been living".  Maybe that's why I want to do this project because I can relate to them on a far beyond level that goes beyond pixie dust.

Ophelia by  John Everett Millais  1851/52